How much can change in 17 months?

Wow- 17 months ago was my last update. I can't even believe all the things that have changed since then. Let's see the obvious- Jake and I are divorced, I moved to the Mississippi Gulf Coast, the kids are much bigger and smarter.

What amazes me reading this is that 17 months is seriously a blink of an eye but it seems so LONG ago. I miss the house in GA and our friends. I don't miss the weak person I was. Not at all. I won't go into the details but the person I was- I don't recognize anymore. If you need a further explanation than that I may give you one privately.

Something amazing to me is that through all the stresses and trials of the last year- I've actually been able to grow closer to God. There was a long period of time that I went to church because I was supposed to.. I went to Bible Study because it set a good example. Everything I did religiously was because it was the right thing to do. UM NO.....that was horrible. Last year I spent a whole night up crying and asking God how I got to the point I was at. Well then for the first time in a long time- I heard the spirit speak. "Because you left me" That little statement was more than enough to shake me to the core. I wish I could say that I've spent the last 12 months faithfully in church and studying the bible but I haven't. I'm still struggling. The difference is I no longer feel alone in that battle. I have been blessed to find a church here that I strongly feel God's pull for me to become active in. This church is to me one of a kind- even listening to sermons feel different than the ones that I grew up listening to. They are presented in a less preachy more love type method.

Anyways now that you are up-to-date, I plan on trying to update this sucker 1-2 times a week.

Kid Quotes

Jack

"Mommy go to work so I can watch tv."
"its time to take Lexi back, we need a small baby"
After dragging Lexi half way across the park "Look Lexi its your friend"
"The president is on your phone and he won't stop talking."
"I need a girlfriend BUT Lexi doesn't need any boyfriends other than me."

Lexi
You the bestest ever Momma
Momma that's a LONGcut